Saturday, January 31, 2009
was out for the whole day ytd.. went to Marina square at 145 as planned.. met up wif jie and jx then went for lunch while we waited for carol and queenie to reach.. went back to pick up carol and queenie and went to the bowling alley to bowl.. not feeling myself today, like no mood to bowl liddat but just carried on.. play 3 round won nothing.. not me really.. haiz.. cant do anything right when my mind's not empty.. then we walked to Suntec as queen wanted to get some auntie anne de pretzel.. then we went to have dinner at the basement food court.. met up with ken and james but jx gtg lerr.. slacked around suntec as sebas with his gf, dowan us go disturb ~.~ then met up with sebas and went to eat donuts F3 headed back to MS to meet zen at the pool place.. started pooling for awhile then carol and sebas gtg lerr so we went back to bowling for 1 round.. bought tickets for a show at 12am, wedding wars, i think.. crap show to me, i dosed off after the blonde's hair turned blue ~.~ show ended at 2+, slacked around till 3 and everyone cab home lerr..
on total, i spent like $8x ~.~ but who cares, happy jiu hao =] yes, the outing was a success but people who said they will show up didnt. y say that when u cmi? dun even say that u cfm going and end up last min tell me cmi. some say will cfm with me by fro, end up i msg u ytd, tel me nt coming. lan jiao lang, say wan cfm with me then ownself MIA. dowan care so much ler lah, next time wan outing u guys go plan, everytime i plan then gt ppl kp here kp there say wad evening nvr plan properly. not i nvr plan propely, is just that i dunno wad time u all need go home. if i wan plan i can plan till next morning also can. no1 tel me wad time gtg how i plan? plan liao all gtg i plan for wad siol ~.~
well, im off to fishing now, guess i'll update in the evening.. shag, tired, mind filled with thoughts.. haiz..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Friday, January 30, 2009
went out to slack wif denv till 3am and jie called me to talk abt wad happened.. haiz.. seriously, r/s problems are real tough to handle.. i can give advice but it just doesnt go our way at times.. yes, its tough but if everyone just hangs on to it, i guess it would be happily ever after? i just hope everything would be ok for them, i dun wanna see emo faces tmr.. seriously, i dun wanna emo tmr.. i just wanna go out, have fun, chill out and call it a day.. lets just hope everything would be alright..
up at 10++ by a msg frm jie.. haiz, i really dunno wads going thru kai's head.. didnt kno hw to reply, was in a daze, half asleep.. lay ard my bed till 1130 then went to bath and went to meet kor at sing post as he sent his dad's car for servicing at my dad's shop.. had lunch then chilled till 2pm and he went up to office with me.. kor went into my nl while i was dotaing away.. he went sg boss but drop crap.. then kor left at 3++ and i continued to rot in maple till i got some stuffs to handle.. did some data entry and slacked in office till 5++
went off at 6 to meet kor at pasir ris for fishing.. didnt fish tonight, just on laptop listen music till flat.. left at 930.. homed at 940.. bathed and played psp till now.. dunno wads going to happen tmr.. lets just hope and pray nothing happens and it'll be another happy day =] i hope..
Note to self:~
After putting some thought into it,
I guess its not even worth my time to do that to you.
I wash my hands off you.
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Thursday, January 29, 2009
up at 8, went to office with dad to kui gang *first day of work after CNY*.. i got $50 cause its the tradition at the workplace that anyone that comes help out would get a red packet.. just take lo, since i go thr also help do some data entry nia.. extra cash for me to spend =X left at 2pm and went for lunch with dad at Eunos kopitiam.. finished up and went for pool with dad.. surprised? yes, my dad plays pool too =p its been a long long time since i played with dad.. rusty myself, i also didnt play that well x.x lucky no side bets, arbo i sure lose dao ~.~" left the place at 6++ and went for dinner at the teochew restaurant.. 2 person eat 103 bucks ~.~ si bei gao lat, F3, eat till cannot move.. Zzzz.. sure grow sideways F5!! homed at 730.. watch tv till 10 and here i am blogging ~.~
pretty quiet day.. no msgs, just notified connie jie abt the guild outing.. i guess its just quiet.. no1 bugged me to go out/slack.. at times i really feel lonely.. but at least dad jio-ed me to play pool which i stunned thr for a moment before saying, ok lets go.. fun day yet its just hard to move out of my current state of emoness.. i have no idea why or wad im emoing about but i just dont really have the mood to do anything.. after writing the bbs in the noon at office, i thought here and there, would anyone even bother to come for the outing? yeah, the same ppl, kai, jie, james, queen, maybe kenny? how bout the rest? do they even bother? or they just cant be bothered and just might be thinking, aiya outing nia, go out waste $$.. true, we go out spend $$ but for wad? to be happy correct? if all u guys think abt is to stay home and maple, lvl high high, u gt wad? the truth is u get NOTHING at all. and this is where i break it to u guys, ppl that i know, from today onwards, i QUIT Maple. give me the reasons why i should continue mapling, the list goes on.. tell me y i should quit, the list goes on as well.. login to talk crap can but if u wan me to train to 2xx, im sorry to tell u that, thats nt my game. i agree with this statement, Maple = play long = pro.
you lied, you played me out, you cheated my feelings. 3 words to u:~ _l_ YOU BITCH It ends here, you're off my friends list.
Note to self:~
Its time,
Execute the plan.
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
went out at 11 last night, went to ecp to find the lan shop yong sim(ys) bro wanted to go to ~.~ cannot find it, prolly close down alr =X so headed to grandlink to find kor and gang since they would be there for zak at 3am =p played l4d, dota and maple for like 5 hours x.x after 3 hour i walk out of the lan shop like seh seh alr, headache frm playing l4d ~.~ zzzz.. all of them zaking lerr, i sit and watch since kor using hero, jimmy and ray on NL, crystal use fren de bm and dearie at home T.T end up jimmy also headache so i take over NL =D dwned at 345 x.x continued to dota till 5++ and went home..
Exhausted x.x slept till 1pm.. just took my lunch at the kopitiam.. now lying around at home doing nothing T.T someone jio me out pls x.x
To her:~ if a person really like u, he/she doesnt judge u by how u look. rather, if u ask me, i'd judge a person base on their personality and thinking. if u dun think alike, wads the point of carrying on in a r/s where quarrels always happen btw u 2 when u dun agree with each other. Agree? think abt it =]
haiz.. wad an emo day at home.. stayed home all the way after lunch.. Dota in Garena from 2 till 5++ then went for dinner alone and watched Gundam 00 season 2, ep 1 ~ 13 till 940.. wanted to jio denver, connie, yk, james and kenny out for dinner.. only denver cfm, james cmi, kenny MIA and connie dunno go whr wif yk.. kor and gang camping at Ray's place.. Dearie left sg for korea with family.. shan bro out wif eve and going aunts hse for gambling.. ys bro wanna stay at home.. Dex and gang all booked in.. im left.. alone.. i guess, i dont have that many close friends ard me.. i really wonder at times, i have friends ard me and yet some just cmi to go out.. whr have my friends gone to..?
Note to self:~
Find a job,
Puff lesser,
Eat a proper meal..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
up early in the morn 6am x.x sent mum and sis to airport as they r going to china for holiday.. dilly dally shilly shally.. reach airport 655 unloaded their luggage onto the push cart then push to the check in area to meet their friends.. checked in at 710 then me and dad went to bedok market to buy some new year fishies.. wa lao, damn ex siol, 1 kg $40 ~.~" then went back to eunos market for breakfast.. homed at 8 and went to bed straight..
up at 12pm then prepared lunch with dad, cooked some noodles with fishballs, veg and roast pork.. finished up and wash the stuff then dad went to clean up the new year fishies.. and i helped to wash the stomach x.x damn fishy, lucky Dearie nt in the hse or she'd go *puke* =X done cooking by 130 and let the fishies cooldown.. finished them up by 2++ and went to bath =p
went out at 3 to find Dearie below her block.. cannot go in her hse T.T so just waited downstairs and left for pasir ris at almost 4 i guess? =X kor and gang all busy gambling at ray's hse x.x went to kfc for Dearie's lunch since she had late breakfast.. left around 5 lerr so drove to pasir ris park to stroll.. wad a view.. can see the ships parked on the left and a couple of kelongs in our front view.. sat down and chilled with the wind blowing onto our faces.. relaxed.. this is the one place where all my fan nao will go away.. you guys can try it out =p go during the evening to avoid the sun and leave by 8+ as the wind would get cold as night falls x.x stayed around till the sun set at ard 7+ and drove back to bedok to slack below Dearie's block.. chilled around till 8++ and i can see Dearie tired lerr, keep yawning F3 so i sent her to the lift and went to catch the bus.. homed at 9..
well, i should be going out soon, yong sim bro jio me go out wif dex and gang ~.~" lucky i took a short nap arbo, i sure sleep alr ~.~ there goes day 2 of CNY.. 13 more days to go.. at least i got to meet Dearie today x.x missed u lots T.T
Note to self:~
Refrain from gambling
(which i dont unless tio pull down X.X)
Refrain from drinking
(ppl jio me also T.T)
Refrain from smoking
(ok, this one need to cut down =X)
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Monday, January 26, 2009
was up till 1++ dotaing vs AIs.. got up at 10 and washed up to get into my new yr clothes.. it doesnt seem special today, just like any other ordinary day cept from the new clothes.. went dwnstairs to see no1 around.. hopped onto lappy and went into maple, was a miracle i could login O.O?? as expected, bl only 2 on9, guild kosong.. went off and started dotaing with AI again.. then mum and dad came dwn.. ended my game quick and sis came dwn at 1130.. reached grans place at 1140 and took our *brunch* then sit around.. no ang bao.. no nothing.. just went thr for brunch? i guess thats it.. heres the weird thing, i receive a msg frm someone who actually broke his friendship with me a few months back over a game ~.~ ah well, since he wished me happy cny in return i also sent him a word of thanks and wished him the same thing.. i guess, i still regard u as a friend otherwise i wouldnt have replied huh? 1 friend more is better then 1 foe more aint it? i hope u think likewise =]
left grans at around 12++ and sent mum and sis to Eunos mrt as they were going si ma lu to pray to Goddess of Mercy.. then stayed home with dad and dad cooked some new year fish for tea break i suppose? was 4++ then so ate 2 fishies and continued to nua in front of my lappy.. wad i did? lols.. CS, Dota and played almost every game in my psp =.=" damn bored.. mum and sis came back at 5 so all went to bath and get ready for dinner with my wai po at hougang kopitiam..
reached at 6pm and waited for uncles and aunties to reach.. all settled down by 610 but jenette would be late as she went visiting with her uncles.. dilly dally shilly shally.. played puzzle bubble throughout the whole dinner, was competing with my cuz to see who could survive the longest in the *endless* mode.. i won =] of course lah, i zai wad =X dinner ended at 745.. and everyone went home lerr.. homed at 8..
im really lazy to post photos, seriously.. need transfer frm phone to lappy ~.~ well, im lazy lah =X dun request photos lah x.x and and, i hate taking photos ~.~" dun like flashes.. blinds my eyes x.x ah well, feeling much better after a night sleep.. i guess things fade away in time, like the old saying goes:~ time will heal all wounds. true but to a certain extent as we all know, memories are always in our mind, somethings that really cannot be erased stay there, carved into the walls of our brains..
there goes day 1 of cny.. couple of ang baos from mum's side and emoing whole day at home.. i guess the next few days of my cny would be as *colorful* as today bahh.. cannot go visiting, cannot invite friends over, wad more can i do but stuck my ass at home? haiz.. y gt this kind of rule.. need 1 yr then can go attend *hong shi* cause my granpa passed on.. not 7 7 49 day over jiu over ler mehh.. i really hate this kinda customs.. now that i heard frm sis that need wait till April then can move to new hse.. haiz.. wtf is this.. everything must wait 1 yr then can do anything nice? i give up.. just stay home and rot bahh.. who can plan outing apart from going visiting can jio me.. im freaking bored.. 14 days left to emo..
Note to self:~
Find more games..
Find more movies..
For its 14 days of emoing ~.~"
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Sunday, January 25, 2009
slept till 9++ then went out with dad to collect roasted duck and pork for my 2 grans for the reunion dinners respectively.. just like a delivery boy.. went to tanjong katong to get the stuff, had a quick breakfast and went to potong pasir to pass gran the goods.. then went on to toa payoh to pass my other gran the same stuff.. stayed at grans place till 12++ then went home and dad went out again leaving me home alone..
tried to get into maple, lagged my ass off so i just gave up and went to play dota with Ais.. haiz.. no mood to play.. stopped at almost 2 then dad came home with lunch.. was eating halfway then queen called me ask whether today wan ton or stuff.. no mood.. didnt wanna go out today.. then dearie called me at 330.. talked about wad happened to me ytd.. talked till almost 5 then i gtg bath and go for dinner at grans lerr.. i really appreciate the long long talk Dearie.. i'll try my very best to get over it soon.. i will..
went to grans.. sat down wif dad and family to eat.. no appetite.. just took some soup, some fish and finished up.. said i was bloated but i wasnt.. just went for a stroll downstairs.. took a quick puff and went back up.. went over to potong pasir grans place after dinner.. surprised, saw my cousin, jenette.. long time no see her lerr, 6 years x.x migrate there so long now then come back find us T.T missed u lots.. stayed at grans place, got my hair messed up like a siao kia by my cousins.. hardly meet up with them.. guess i always go out during weekends then bo go gran place bahh.. left grans at 1040.. homed at 11..
at times i really wonder why i got to know her.. why i got like so attatched to her.. i really dun get it.. haiz.. love is such a weird thing.. weird dao i myself also dunno wtf im doing at times.. can wait thr like siao kia for 3.5hrs just to get my hopes wiped clean.. stupid aint it..? but i still did it.. haiz.. anw.. Happy CNY to everyone.. i wont be able to go visiting this yr so no need jio me go ur hse or come my hse.. ah gong passed on haven 1 yr, cannot go visiting and no ang baos.. Emo cny for me.. anw.. if wan go out can jio me bahh.. holi lerr.. wan go anywhere also can..
Dearie:~ sorry i made u worried.. really appreciate it that you made the effort to call me to talk to me and to help me get out of this shyt.. i wont brood about it.. for you are my present now and thats the fact nothing and no one can change.. <33 U Dearie =]
Note to self:~
Stop thinking about it lerr..
Shes the past, Deon's the present..
Stop living in the past and move on..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Saturday, January 24, 2009
dota wif james, ming and friends till 240am.. Dearie came to find me, she was worried about me emoing.. she went onto maple, lag like shyt.. i guess my MIA-ness has made me lost footing as a Jr. in the guild.. online, no1 says hi, bl also quiet.. no1 cares i guess.. just a 16x Noob NL login nia.. nothing much to boast about.. gt jioed for zak but gt my Cass run to attend at 430.. was asking for details on the 3am run.. no1 answer me till i ask the 2nd time.. ask if she wan use or i use also bo reply.. gt pek chek, pissed just told her to use and i logged off.. hopped onto noob hero, all eq gone.. smlj.. nt al eq mine, some sw de then lend here lend there, i dun mind lah but if lost how?? left lan jia0 helm and a stupid lvl35 overall.. aiya, wan lend jiu lend lah, i dowan care liao, lost u go tell them bahh.. i'm losing faith in Delp, its like logging into a dead world.. kai, connie, james, kenny, queen all MIA also.. haiz.. login also no1 to talk to..
went off maple and took a spin in Dearie's evo.. so many thoughts in my mind, bits and pieces of them floating all around.. i dunno wads happening to me, why now?? this hardly happens to me, i dun give a damn if a flashback of my ex-es come now and then but this is different, its like walking through time, seeing it through my own eyes, wad we've done, memories, sweet yet painful memories that i wanna forget and yet it all came to me in 1 shot ytd.. i dunno wads happening to me.. i feel like breaking down.. falling apart, i wanna stand up straight but its just too hard.. really tough..
drove back for zak.. 430 sharp started.. was in a daze.. can even forget to enrage.. haiz.. wad m i doing.. i cant even concentrate for zak.. dwned at 502.. nothin much.. tt 20 gen 20 and some noob eqs npced.. logged off and sent Dearie back home.. stayed till 6++ and took the first bus home.. walked home in a daze.. wads happening to me.. y is this happening all of a sudden?? i really dun understand y this has to happen.. is this a sign that im not suppose to get into another r/s for i will fail it this time round? i really dunno this time.. seriously lost.. guide me through this shyt please.. someone help.. T_T
I really feel like giving up.
-CHRIS aka xDS-
up late today.. was alr almost 11 bahh.. i've been pigging till pretty late these days.. dunno why lehh, just tired and wanna roll ard on my bed bahh.. anw, maple is screwed, singnet users cannot play properly, too lag, dc, the list goes on.. played around with my blog, changed some fonts, embeded a song, 说好的幸福呢.. it brought back many memories.. a song really worth listening..
emo day at home.. Dota-ed with kai, getting weak ler.. so long nvr play.. Dearie popped over while we were about to start a new round.. at least i didnt die too many times =x our dota game became like maple, gt wad piu here and S for stun.. lols.. Dearie got bored as she doesnt play dota.. and my other lappy only gt net plus maple is screwed so she just surfed the net..
ended the game almost 5 lerr.. went to bath and headed to farmway for fishing =D not bad lah today, i caught 2 snappers and a small grouper.. kor best ler, 2 snapper, 2 red snapper and 1 mangrove jack.. total 8 fishies for 3 hours.. went to the nearby elias mall to cook the grouper and mangrove jack.. pretty sumptious meal, can see Dearie is enjoying the fish.. i dunno why though.. no appetite for the whole day.. i just keep thinking of a lot of stuff in my mind.. just cant keep it clear..
haiz.. i've changed.. i'm not the old Chris anymore, not the one that is always focused on the things that hes doing on hand.. flashbacks of a lot of people around me.. how they helped me when im down yet im still like this.. i really dunno why.. i didnt smile much till Dearie asked me wads wrong.. i really dunno.. just walked away and took a puff.. Dearie seemed worried.. kor came over to talk to me.. i really dunno man.. im just stressed up.. after leaving the eating place, i was pretty emoish.. drove slowly.. Dearie was like, u ok mahh, if not i drive bahh.. i just kept quiet and drive on to bedok.. kor and gang went home lerr.. i sent Dearie to her place and took a bus home..
Dearie:~ I'm sorry, i couldnt make u happy today.. i guess im just vexed with everything that is happening around me..
at times, i really think that im not a good person.. i hate liers but at times, i myself lie to even the closest people around me.. yes, i dun wan u guys to worry about me but in fact, i wan people to care for me.. i dunno how to say it but i just wan someone to share my problems with but in turn, i dunno how to say it.. end up, noting said at all.. i tend to bottle up my fan naos and throw them aside.. i dunno how to phrase stuff these days.. can u guys help me? im really lost.. vexed..
Note to self:~
Giving up was nvr an option..
Giving in is a 100% NO..
Holding back, i think i should..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Friday, January 23, 2009
At times, i really dun understand why my mum treats me like this. seriously, if u gt thing to tell me, just say out lah no need to keep on using sentences with hidden meanings(hua zhng you hua) to talk to me. i dun like being turned round and round to find your answer. just fcuking tell me wad u want ~.~ nuff said, wasting my breathe since she just repeats wadever shit she says over and over and over again~ Ctrl C, Ctrl V _l_!!
left office at 6 sharp, went for a quick dinner at Sing post.. then headed to pasir ris to meet kor and bros.. Dearie had to finish paperwork at her office then gotta complete some planning thing when she gets back home.. busy busy day for u Dearie.. guess u gotta complete everything before cny which is next week.. reached pasir ris around 645.. was early, kor was just otw and told me to get some ciggs for him X.X my wallet left 24 bucks, grabbed my Next chill and his Marl menthol lights, left 2 dollar.. Zzzz.. broke T.T wait for kor till wan koon.. grabbed a snicker bar to chew on =D Dearie's fav now become mine too =X but must control later eat too much become fat fat =X
kor reached at 7 liddat.. was damn cool when he reached, he tossed me his keys and i tossed him his ciggs, like everyone looking at us and i drove off to pasir ris farmway there.. sit around, puffed, chilled out while waiting for the fish to bite our bait =X jimmy bro reached at 730, he bought barcardi and breezer xD i took peach =X still no fish eat T.T then 2 evos went past us then ray and crystal reached at 8++ bahh.. sit around, msged mel saying i cmi for kenny bday lerr x.x then Dearie arrived at 915 =D she looked tired.. i guess she quickly finish her work, bath and came down lerr.. haiz.. if you're tired you should've stayed home.. X.X slacked around till 10.. stil no fish and we gave up.. went for dinner at elias mall, duck rice =X then went off to Dearie's place to slack..
rolled around Dearie's bed while she bathed.. was kinda late lerr, 1115 bahh.. so i went off after giving dearie a hug.. caught the bus home as i wanted dearie to rest and not to drive me home =p homed at 1145..
KENNY:~ HAPPY 19TH BDAY BRO!! SORRY I CANT BE THERE!! a bit too late ler + i with my bros, hope u understand ya? =]
Note to self:~
Rmb to cut down on puffing
Rmb to bring sweets for our next meetup X.X
Rmb to say the 3 words to her before u sleep <3
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Played pool with my classmates ytd, Leon and Lee ming. frm 330 play till 645 ~.~ Tired siol.. i even logged into maple using wireless@sg =X lag like shyt but still can ahma siol, was a miracle i didnt dc =X then continue slack at pool place till they finish playing.. took the shuttle bus frm OCC to yishun mrt and headed to bugis.
bugis again.. emo place, dun really like going there these few days but my bros all wanna go hang out there.. memories, sad memories written all over the word bugis junction.. haiz.. dowan say ler, say ler spoil my day =.= so i met up with shan bro, passed her the 30 bucks and took a quick dinner, duck noodle ~.~ then bought eve's pencil box and headed home.. i took mrt they take bus.. emo alone again..
went home ard 930.. weird, dad wasnt home.. didnt wanna ask mum since shes pretty prejudiced against me these days, wadever i wanna do also cannot. aiya, heck lah, just bath and chatted in msn.. grats jie and bro not quarreling lerr, dont keep quarrel lah, wont do anything good as it just causes emo-ness in u 2 =.= went out at 1105 i think, drove to pasir ris to slack.. then kor and gang reached.. go kopitiam la kopi, talk crap till 12++ then go pasir ris park walk walk.. jimmy tripped and fell =.=" his left shin and knee kena cuts x.x lucky Dearie car gt clean water, go wash off the sand and clean dry.. heng ar, no deep cuts ~.~ laugh laugh laugh till fall down =.= dumb dumb jimmy bro =X
slacked around till 2++ then went home.. so tired, just went to bed.. didnt went to sch, alr last day ler, guess very little ppl will attend bahh.. kena kp in the morning at 745 by mum abt y dowan go sch, i say module pass liao plus last day of sch, teacher also bo teach one. cont to kpkb till 8. cb sia, if im fully awake i sure hong gan her one, 7 early 8 early come and kp me. wtf u wan. gt a call frm dad at 10, call me go office help out. help out? or to get hong gan by the lao cb again? bo bian, LPPL, need go down. reach at 1115, walk in nia tio hong gan. pcb, u whr nt happy, premanualpause need to hong gan ppl si bo? i see u my mum then i bo gan ur whole family die arbo i also die _l_. seriously dunno wtf she thinking lah these days.
waiting for the day to pass then need to go meet james and gang to celebrate kenny's bday in the evening. then i guess should be ton or wad bahh. haiz.. stuck in the office till evening.. every 15min tio hong gan.. lazy talk to that lcb alr lah, just plug in earpiece blast music. lazy listen to u kpkb me. just shuttup and do ur work sua. hong gan ppl very fun meh? arbo i hong gan u ai mai?
To her:~ Life goes on my friend, dont give up that only tree in the forest. you're a nice person, im sure, there're many other nicer people out there then him. the way he treated you we all can see. just walk outta it and live life afresh. takkaire ya? =]
Note to self:~
Tolerance,
Patience,
Will power.
Hang in there..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
out of hse at 1050pm ytd, went to sembawang to grab kor's ride, took a quick puff wif kor.. asking me about later, i just said, gt answer liao. then he smiled and said get the fhk outta here, its getting late!! wa kao, 1145 liao smlj!! _l_ im late, sped off, 150 160.. lucky no police stop, all the way pia to pasir ris.. it was a miracle.. no red traffic lights *i was wondering, is this fate..?*, i just sped through and got to the track at 1158pm.. she was there.. leaning on the bonet of her evo.. kor's car was damn hot X.X like a 20min drive cut into a 13min outrun.. lucky no police stops =X
she stared at me, *You're Late* =X im not T.T its 1159.. then she say im suppose to wait for her not she wait for me =X ok lorr, my fault.. grabbed a branch frm the bushes and started drawing, artistic? O.O dunno lehh, just dunno how to say out so use draw de =X wrote both our names, then drew a heart enclosing them both.. she cried x.x for once, i didnt know wad to do when a girl cries, esp when its someone that u really care for.. Never to give up.. you didnt.. Never to give in.. you didnt.. Never holding back.. you didnt.. yes this will be the day to rmb.. 22/1/09, dun break the promise you told me and i'll never break mine. well i just take the time to be 00:00.00 since i started to draw at ard 12 sharp i guess =X slacked around till 2+ and we went over to kor's place.. kor half asleep walked out and i tossed him his keys.. he was like, gao dim sai? i was like, wad u think? *Grins* =] sped off to bedok to crash at her place.. was too tired to even blog..
up at 7 and she sent me home to grab my lappy and stuff then i drove to sch =D then she went off to work x.x slacking in class now.. gotta meet shan bro later to pass her the 30 bucks i owed her =X ps ar, cash flow abit tight, now then pass u back =p wonder wad im gonna do later.. *ponders* ah well, dinner then home lorr =p
To Dearie:~ Tell me eveything when u're sad, down, vexed.. dont keep everything inside.. i dont wanna keep everything inside either.. i wanna share my problems with you and i hope u'll tell me yours too =] no lies.. just the truth is wad i seek.. And And, i hate taking pictures!! dun use my phone!! Deon, 1314 Wo Ai Ni..
To her:~ Yes, it brought back memories, painful memories, i just didnt have the mood to even talk till queen started joking around.. i guess u also have your darling now nothing much i can think about.. its time for us both to move on. enough said, heres wishing u all the best and stay happy always =]
To kai/connie:~ Dont lose faith in yourself when your friends around u still have faith in u 2. stay strong, stay happy, NEVER give up.
Note to self:~
SLEEP!!
And And,
I <3 U Deon!! =X
-CHRIS aka xDS-
up pretty late considering i slept at like 2am? O.O cause i went out to slack wif Deon and bros, la kopi, chit chat and back at 2am.. pretty short meet up, 3 hrs i guess =p at least still can disturb Deon, not that boring =X chat wif jie, she was pretty down regarding kai bro X.X chit chat till maple patch up then patch ler go in, lag like _l_ !@#$%^&*() end up afk go bath..
out at 2pm, met denv and kai at bugis street and go walk walk.. then go meet queen and then go Flexor to buy T-shirt while kai bought a pair of jeans, T-shirt and a shirt, RICH ASS!! =.= sua, buy finish lerr go smoke and meet her, lucify and his gf and another mapler. u said lucify coming wif his gf, u showed up? haiz.. at most times i gotta see u again. not that i dowan to see u as a friend just dun wanna meet for the time being. slacked at bugis then went to far east. walked ard then go wisma to find food, food court full =.= then went to cine to eat at some hong kong cafe.. food still ok lah but not worth the $ =X finished up at around 9, took a puff and went home.
why must u show up on a day that is impt to me. i really dun understand. push back ur tuition to come out with us? if u think im blaming u, then u're wrong. its just that i dun wanna have anymore heart aches when i see u. not now, my wounds arent healed yet.
todays the day.. my mind is still swirling around although i have my answer.. i guess that it's not me today huh? im the guy that's always very straight and i dun like going around in circles.. ah well, time i head out to sembawang to get kor's ride.. still need to make my way to pasir ris before 1159.. im off.. c ya guys tmr =]
Note to self:~
Never give up.
Never give in.
Never hold back.
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
usual gettin up at 7 and reached class at 825.. PHP today X.X boring stuff.. lame bread for breakfast cause py cannot join me T.T then received a call frm Deon saying she gt surprise for me at 1230 O.O?? blurr blurr went back for lesson at 1030.. then went for lunch wif py at koufu canteen, ban mian =.= cheap cheap though, 2 bucks nia xD then went for a smoke, but i saw a rather familiar evo driving past.. hmm.. rmbed about the surprise.. somethings not right, kept my head up =X back to class at 1230..
sat down staring at the worksheet.. then i received a msg frm Deon calling me to get my butt off my seat and open the door for her O.O?? saw that cha bor right outside of my class x.x jig tao ask her wad she doing here, no work mehh.. tell me wad lunch break come disturb me =.=" semo sia, come spy on me see whether i gt sleep is it =X went into class to grab my lappy and went to the pantry to slack =p jie pm me on msn F3 boo semo =.= chat chat awhile, tio wack 2 times then i bring her go canteen eat, getting late, lunch break end at 130 so i sent her to the carpark and she went off.. wad a surprise really.. i was only thinking of you to ask me to go out in the evening or sumthing but i didnt expect u to come to my class!! X.X really got nothing to say to you but just this --> <33, nothing more, nothing less =]
last test of the sem today, PHP also tmd =.= lucky class end early, 230 jiu end lerr so i went to grab some bread and a quick puff and went back to class at 330.. revised abit on the test.. and it went pretty ok lah, only 1 5 mark question i BUANG X.X went off to meet parents at paya lebar.. headed to parkway parade to have dinner, Ajisan.. then went to do some shopping =D i bought 2 Levi's jeans =X total cost of Sgd $300 =X chor dao si bei high, lucky is father pay arbo i die liao =X strolled around PP till 9+ then went home lerr..
Our histoy of how we actually met? lets say.. it was a starry night, i was 13 and u were 14, i was in my evo and u were at the sides. i popped over to ask for ur number =X and got to know u ever since.. i couldnt believe u waited for me for 6 years, wei she mo ni na me sha.. cause i said those words to u? you should have told me earlier.. guess we were just kids and me racing with my life.. i might not be the right one for u, not the one that can always make u happy, not the one that can always be with there for u.. Would you accept all these and my ridiculously hot temper? 21/1/09, 1159pm, pasir ris track, i'll see u there.
Questions to self:~
Did i make the correct decision?
Will i be able to move on?
Will i be able to sustain this?
Will i be able to make u happy?
Will i change for the better?
Note to self:~
Ans those questions.
Dun be late.
& Call kor.
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Monday, January 19, 2009
well well, first of all, many thanks to sista Connie for the new blogskin, Cbox, etc.. really nice blogskin, like the colors but its rather messy like wad kai and clarence said X.X but nvm lah, you alr put in ur effort lerr, dun waste too much time on it, its just a blog, just for ppl to read up and pass by =]
up at 7am X.X reached class at 825, JAVA!! Zzzz.. see liao sian 1/2, last lesson liao stil wan teach!! F5!! got a call frm Deon saying she's taking half day cause not feeling well, having a slight headache X.X continued class till 1130 then pontang go bedok find her xD peeped through the window and saw her doing work, dropped a msg telling her to turn towards her window then she chua sai!! xD chilled at her place and i went down to buy porridge for her =.= chicken porridge with some pi dan F3
slacked in maple.. Went to Delp, guild like DeaD =.= only saw aoa and some bls online =.=" sian 1/2 so i went to cass to slack =D go fm gai gai then kor de bl pm me ask me wan zak or nt, 530 start.. sian, it was only 4++ need wait 1 hr =.=" so i went to solo papu =D dropped crap.. Zzzz.. went 1 round drop eq no sb or shyt =.=" then i went to roll around Deon's bed staring at her busy at work X.X so bored..
went to play ard wif my blog =p tried linking 2 friends up but the names appeared but the link gt problem T.T msged connie jie to ask her wad to do and i did follow her instructions but cannot work lehh X.X then jie say she go home help me fix xD thx jie!! <33 looked at my watch, it was 525!! Shyt, almost late for zak =X quickly logged in and luckily i repot sui sui and park at nath arbo jia lat sia.. straight accept pt and go in ler xD i was still msging jie when zak started =X nvm lah, bs zai plus stance max, can afk =] sit thr adv combo, enrage, adv combo and brandish all the way xD then btm 2 arm dwn they go >> emo yi xia, no bs heal me =[ solo top << arms arms dwn almost same time.. Deon say i siao, zak still can msg ppl =X is not i zai, is kor de hp IMBAL =.=" 20k w/o hb Zzz.. was a rather speedy run considering 12 man, started at ard 527 and dwned by almost 6.. +-30mins bahh.. Dropped shyt =.=" saw craven but the wa is like ~.~ 45 nia ZZZZ!!
went to check my blog then i saw a few tags =.= 1 frm clarence, 2 frm kai so i reply them both at once, same topic, say my blog messy X.X then i go lie down to rest.. then i saw Deon de screen gt black and red background =.= must be go peep at my blog F3!! i wasnt wrong, i saw her tag =.=" wa lao eh, im right beside u still wan tag me =.=" think im blind shi mah F3!! but u take care luh.. headache still wan work.. should rest ler mahh.. x.x went for dinner at 7++ then walked Deon to her place and i went off home.. don wanna disturb her ler, better rest early today k? <33
Deon:~ SLEEP EARLY IF YOU'RE READING THIS F5!!
Note to self:~
Flashbacks every now and then..
Trying hard not to think about it..
It just aches every now and then..
2 days left..
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Sunday, January 18, 2009
Stayed home mapling till 1++ then went out wif parents for lunch at nearby kopitiam.. then i went to meet yong sim bro and gang at clementi to pa lan, L4D again.. left the lan shop at 6 and made my way to pasir ris.. went to my sec sch classmate de chalet.. reached at 7++ wasnt a pleasant sight.. saw my rivals(ZY and JT) in sec sch. passed bday girl her pressie, some plush bear =.= and sat with my friends.
then the 2 fuckers walked over to sia lan me. dunno say wad so long bo see liao still as dao as ever. SMLJ? i dun even wanna say hi to u 2 and didnt even speak a word to u and now wan sia lan me? i jig tao stand up kp them. who u think u r, i kno ur my friend's friend, give her face as it was her bday i dowan find trouble. end up, kp them liao then my friend come and call us to chill off.. i walked away with a friend and took a quick puff.. then i told cheryl i gtg ler, dun wanna stay on, i dowan find trouble on ur bday party. she was like nvm lah, dun care them, be happy jiu hao lorr. then i was like dowan lah, i sure bth and kpkb one, dowan make a scene on ur bday lah. next time meet up again then chill with her. wished her sweet 19 and went off home.
got on the train, called kai phone off =.= called denv, no ans =.=" called shan bro, at plaza sing, dowan go, so far "=.=" end up go home slack.. go maple liao lah, so damn boring..
Note to self:~
Change your temper.
Change your attitude.
Stop being so rash.
3 Days left..
I wan someone to talk too..
VEXED,
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Saturday, January 17, 2009
some lyrics i got off the net which pretty resembles the situation you got me into right now.. i dont blame u wadsoever just that its hard to forget i guess? well, heres the lyrics:~
Was it all just lies,
words thats just slipped out,
without you realising,
but did you know,
how much hope you’ve gave me,
the love i was long deprived,
i thought you were the one.
but why, did you have to break it,
when i was drowned,
in your perfect love,
but now i know,
everything was just false hopes,
lies, mistakes and sins,
and that night,
holding each other close,
never meant anything to you.
did you know how my heart,
rip itself apart,
when you said i wasn’t the one,
everthing just happened,
and its was all just a mistake.
i know it wont work out anymore,
but, it aint easy,
to see this perfect love fade away,
how you hold me with your loving arms,
kiss me with your tender lips that night,
but now, its all just an overnight sensation.
And,
maybe,
i just took things too seriously,
‘Cause everything was nothing to you..
~The End..~
You should understand how i feel now. taking it one step at a time, im just a friend to you now, nothing more, nothing less. and no Deon, this isnt for you <3
went out at 3am today with Deon to meet kor at kopitiam for supper.. kor was in a bad mood, his HT failed so he jio us out to la kopi.. haiz.. these days, i really dunno whether i should play on or just quit and find a part time job.. my NL in delp is as good as shyt now.. no claw, no dmg.. Gt lvl, Gt hp, no dmg also liddat.. so wad if im 16x? im just a pathetic failure.. chilled with kor till 6++ then went home to crash..
up at 11 and grabbed some bread before blogging.. i'll update the rest of my day most prolly tmr since im going chalet in the evening, classmate's bday..
Note to self:~
FORGET HER.
MOVE ON DAMN IT.
STOP LINGERING IN THE PAST.
Stressed up,
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
im finally back home!! O.O havent been home to sleep these few days.. always crashing at Deon's hse.. ah well, my parents dun even bother now.. left Deon's hse at 12++ and headed back home cause i rmb that the furniture for my new hse at Sea View is coming today at 2pm. reached home at 1 took a quick bath and headed to marine parade via bus 15. met family at the basement and went up to wait the ppl to send the stuff in. sat down in my room and thought of where to place my bed, laptop, modem, etc.. then i suddenly gt a bad headache, migrain.. guess i need to sleep more these days.. my bed came in at 230 =D straight away go koon while waiting for the table and sofa to come in.. they both came in at 330 and need to wait for the men to fix up the chairs. by the time they finish alr 430pm lerr X.X
called Deon to see where she was, no answer =.=" must be sleeping as usual =.=" afternoon nap so important to u meh X.X went dinner wif family at Parkway Parade, Jack's place. had sirloin steak =D then went to walk walk around PP.. then Deon called me to ask where i was then she come pick me up at 5++ =D went to pasir ris park to take a stroll while waiting for kor, jimmy, ray and crystal to reach as we were going fishing. =D brought back memories.. and i went emo for quite some time.. Deon knew i was emoing and we sat down to see the sun set.. it was alr 6++ going 7 ler then i just leaned on Deon and a few tears rolled down.. she hugged me asking me to not think too much abt it.. i've changed.. im not that strong after all.. my tears come down every now and then these days.. i guess im not the old SlaDerZz anymore.. cooled off and told her not to worry about me =p
kor and gang reached at 730 and we headed to the pond at farmway.. my turn to drive =D i got to lead the way as they always think im slow =.= but im not!! at least i only took 5 mins to reach there =X started prawning wif kor they all while Deon and Crystal chit chat =.=" caught quite a few, i think i got 7 =D then our time ended at 845pm.. was a bit too early to get home i guess, so i jio kor they all play dai dee =D so long nvr play wif them ler, i think i cfm lose since i also very long bo touch cards lerr xD starting nvr win nvr lose =[ then Deon sit beside me, my cards all big big liao =D You're my lucky star always <33 jimmy bro most jia lat followed by ray bro.. lost count:~ Jimmy :~ 7 Ray:~ 5 Kor:~ 2 Me:~ 2 xDD all suan me say Deon no come u sure lose de =X bo bian, Deon is my lucky star <33
Left the place at 10 and just reach home not long.. still thinking of you, but i guess thats all the more i want you to be happy and not worry about me. im fine, im taking it a step at a time. Kor, u basted me sia T.T wad call me go disturb crystal sia T.T later ray bro come wack me i tor peng ar X.X si ray bro and crystal so rou ma =.= say those things my hair wan stand lerr lah =.=" still call me say to Deon, later i tio slap ar X.X
yes Deon, i have my answer.. give me a few days more and i'll tell u hao mah? i wanna clear my mind more before i can fang xing de tell you =] a few more days is all that i ask for.. are you willing to wait? =]
To my mapling friends, i might be leaving Delp for awhile.. MAYBE NIA LAH!! i also cannot let go my 16x NL X.X so i MAYBE joining my bros in Cass lorr.. =p i will be back to talk cock or to help you guys zak and stuff =D no worries, im just a phone call away =] HOLIDAYS IN 1 WEEK =D
Note to self:~
I've changed..
I'm not that strong inside..
I need to find that will back..
<3 DEON <3 *wait for me, i will tell you the ans.*
With love,
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Friday, January 16, 2009
just woke up not long ago.. around 10++ bah.. went to mac's wif Deon for big breakfast =D then took a smoke and strolled ard bedok for awhile.. the place changed alot. its been quite some time since i stepped into the market place. everythings pretty dry now compared to the old days at the wet market x.x then went back to Deon place to slack.. FINALLY found the link to jie de blog =.=" she actually linked me alr =X speed reading through her few post in a couple of mins.. then i saw a couple of post regarding kai emoing.. haiz.. read the note bah kai.. then i read the far east outing. LOL BTH sia, i think ler i wan laugh xD
to Kai:~ dun keep emoing ler can? everyone worried about u. she worry she complain i read ler i worry again =.= dun liddat can bo? u make everyone upset. just try to smile more often =]
i guess im gonna go onto maple now =p later then update =]
Note to self:~
You made the decision,
Theres no turning back.
<3 DEON <3
With love,
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Thursday, January 15, 2009
left deon's place at 11++ then went home to bath and slack at comp till 12++ dad haven slp =.=" played psp till seh seh then denv called me at 1++ changed and went out to meet denverina =X slacked outside 7-11 talk cock, drink Anchor 500 ml 3 for 8.80!! CHEAP CHEAP =D pretty smooth and sweet!! deon pls dun scold me =X i kno i shouldnt be drinking but denv wan so i chip in lorr xDD drinking and smoking till 4am and went home to koonzzzz.. up at 7 and went to cwp to meet fang qi for breakfast =.= then she need go sch for test.. sian diao =.= called queenie to slack, heading to amk to meet her soon..
cho bo sit at mac to blog =.="
later back home then continue =p
At ray bro's hse warming now, laptop was with me so i plugged in =D met queen at amk then went to fetch her little sis from sch and went for a quick lunch at the nearby coffee shop near her hse. saw lun, hyperdkx, act dao i diao him he bo say hi then i also bo chup. then went to mac to online maple =X went to scan manon, nothing leh =.= went up to her place to slack, watch tv awhile then i gtg meet yong sim bro and she gotta go meet her fren too. same place summore, clementi mrt xD so took bus to amk inter and train to clementi. she went off meet her fren and i wait for bro to reach. met yong sim bro and went for dinner. went lan shop play L4D then go west coast slack awhile then Deon called me say need go ray bro hse ler..
bro sent me to clementi mrt and i took the train to bugis to meet her. meet her nia tio scolding alr X.X guess she read my blog abt wad i did last night with denv =[ okok.. my fault ok? T_T dun scold me lerr lah T_T then we went to grab a bottle of wine then hopped into her evo and we went off to ray bro's place. so many ppl X.X saw kor, crystal and ray.. passed the wine to ray bro and we took a quick puff at the balcony.. then gt a few msg frm her saying she wan go pasir ris, she was vexed, told her i was at a hse warming couldnt leave then she say she going herself. somethings not right. i can feel it. i dunno wad but i need to stay till 12 before i can gt my butt anywhere. as a friend im worried about u now, i wan to go find u but i cant cause i said i'd be at bro's place till at least 12. just dun do anything foolish.
time i get some food, getting hungry although deon alr got me some bee hoon ler <3 but im still hungry =.="
update again later =p
diao =.= my later become next day lerr xD i hopped on maple and i couldnt login to my main!! paniced, so i logged into my hero to check and it was her inside so i didnt care much. asked if she was ok and as usual she will always say shes alright. went afk for quite long since ray bro they all playing mah jong, sat beside Deon watch her play although i dun understand shyt =.=" slacked around ray bro's place till 3++ then go back Deon hse crash =.=" bath liao change clothes straight away crash like piggy liddat X.X
Note to self:~
i made my decision,
i hope u'll be happy =]
<3 DEON <3
Smiles,
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
didnt go for the movie ytd night.. kor said i K.O like a dead log liddat.. push me wack me also cannot wake up =X seriously too tired lerr lah.. they end up go home koon instead.. up at 5++ saw deon beside me.. also K.O lerr.. went back to sleep and got dragged outta bed by deon at 7++ and went for breakfast.. then deon sent me home to grab lappy and stuff then went to sch in her car.. still half asleep, deon keep call me mai sleep later go class sure tor.. late for class, 835am.. lucky today the faci nt gae gao, mark me present =D boring class.. System Analysis and Design.. Zzzz..
met up with my yr 1 classmates, py and sabrina.. they havent changed a bit cept py rebonded her hair =p had nonya dishes for lunch O.O not bad lah the food, still can make it.. its been a real long time ever since i stepped into the canteen.. usually go out to the kopitiam with king and clarence de.. they both not in sch, prolly working bahh.. went to take a puff in the park with py after sabrina left for class.. back to class at 1035, worksheet, discussion, ppt.. left to smoke at 1230.. deon called me to chat.. dunno why but we're still as close after havent meeting for so long.. just like listening to her voice every now and then.. having a test later.. JAVA.. Zzzz.. dun wanna do it but i gt a C for my 2nd ut.. zzzz.. hopefully gt better grades this time.. deon told me to go study but i don wanna hang up =X end up she gt a bit angry and raised her voice a bit then i bo bian go study.. end up flip through awhile then sian lerr.. started blogging..
meeting deon for dinner after my test.. sian 1/2 she wan go swensens to eat X.X told her i left 15 dollar nia then she say nvm she treat me again =.= ta pai eat so ex de food, can go eat kopitiam a not? at least i can treat u back mahh =XX need to find a job soon, my long 10 weeks holi coming up soon.. $_$ is a really big problem now.. haiz.. lucky i still try to stand on my own and not to lend $$ frm my friends.. but i feel really bad evertime going out with kor and the rest always they pay for my expenses de X.X
kor, train me back.. i wanna go back to the old days with u guys.. although i dun have my old car, im sure i can get a new one soon.. i kno deon will say a big NO as she doesnt wan me to go back to racing.. i just wanna do it a few times for cash.. i really have no other idea to gt $ lerr.. i dun wanna live off u deon.. yes kor, deon told me lerr.. i kno how she feels but i dun really wanna gt into another r/s now.. im scared.. i dun wanna break her heart.. i dun wanna be the one hugging her yet thinking of another person.. i dun wan this to happen.. i dun like cheating people.. i kno i have feelings for u.. i'll tell u during dinner..
dinner at swensen's X.X deon had fish and chips while i had chicken cutlet and rodeo wings as a side =D told deon wad i felt.. i just think that its just too soon although i've know you for close to 7yrs now.. i kno wad u did for me, i kno how tiong xim u can be but im not ready now.. give me a few days.. i'll give u your ans k? =] bu yao give me sad face.. must always smile like the deon i knew a year back <33 ate till 6++ bil came 40++ X.X pass deon 10 bucks but she dowan take, end up i stuff into her wallet and walk out of swensens =X lala, ni na wor mei ban fa =D took a quick puff and hopped into the car to get back to deon's place.. so full x.x went to take a bath and went into maple.. weird, my char was right outside the engine room O.O saw a white essence and went into to sg boss =D drop 1 fei eq.. zzzz.. npc repot sui sui then log off lerr.. went into kor de acc go cass walk walk, gt ppl jio go zak sia x.x bo bian nt my hero, btr not use later die i ki siao X.X deon making dessert =.= eat eat eat, fat fat then u know ar =X ice cream summore =.=" chilling around at her place for awhile before meeting kor, ray and crystal at pasir ris.. didnt go to pasir ris.. planning to slack at deon's place till 12++ 1 and then go find denver.. most prolly slack wif denv till 4++ then go home to sleep..
thats all for now.. yawns..
Note to self:~
you told me somthing i couldnt believe..
i know its been hard on you..
you should have told me..
im sorry..
<3 Deon <3
in a dilemma..
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
ton at deon jie place last nite.. got home at 8++ then straight pom on bed and koon.. got woken up by dad at 10++ X.X call me go help him with some stuff at west coast.. bo bian bath and go out lerr.. breakfast liao straight go west coast.. koon on car =X so tired.. by the time finish alr 1pm ++ lerr.. gave kai a call and he was with kenny as ken was cutting his hair at a saloon i guess =.= went to clementi mrt to take train to TM.. neh neh de no seat.. ZZZZ..
met kai and ken at TM then made our way to far east.. *winks to connie jie =X* when we reached, i went to take a puff and connie jie gave me a call.. she say she dunno how to go far east O.O then i asked her where she is.. she say at 7-11 O.O i jig tao blurr.. i was right beside far east 7-11 and she cannot find me X.X then i asked her and she say she was at wheelock somthing, so i thought it was the showroom there so i walked over to the showroom, bo lang lehh =.= then she was like, im at wheelock place O.O?? wa kao thats like across the road =.= then i walked over to the underpass and she finally saw me =.=" big big SOTONG =.=" then we walked back to far east to have lunch wif kai and kenny.. KFC zinger student meal =D then jess came to join us and slacked around far east till ken gtg to shi fu there and i suddenly dun wanna go as planned, didnt feel like it.. deon jie at HT still can call me =.= die then u know ar!!
wa lao i need type this 100 times X.X GRATS DEON JIE PASSED GENE 30!!! x 100 can anot =X can lah can lah =D dun wack me ar =X big big grats to deon jie passing gene 30 xDD its been so long ler since u join squad =pp finally completed ur set lerr =] neck, egg, mw, gene 30 =D
then kai and connie went off ler.. **connie jie pls drink more water and rest early!! then slacked with jess till 950 and took the train back home.. got a call from deon jie saying wan meet me lerr x.x i havent reach home lehh!! call me go eunos mrt carpark wait for her T.T haven bath sia!! hopped in and started day dreaming, the next moment i know, im asleep and jie woke me up when we reached her hse de carpark.. at deon jie place now.. just bath finish =D she still gt my last time the clothes sia.. really touched.. so long lerr still keep them for me <33 my old jacket.. with my nick imprinted.. SlaDerZz.. its been so long lerr.. brings back old memories =] catching a movie later with kor, crystal, ray and deon jie.. omb bak O.O fighting show.. feeling really tired now.. im gonna crash on jie de bed till kor they all reach.. really bth lerr.. deon jie:~ go sleep lah, later u sleep at movie sia.. ok lorr, i go slp lorr =.= i shall end here..
wad i predict i will do later:~ KOON at movie, kena nag by jie for wasting $$, go supper then go deon jie hse pom on bed again =XXX <3 u guys =D rest time =p
Note to self:~
Nvr forget my bros and sistas!!
<33 Deon jie <33
<3 Crystal jie also <3 *mai say me pian xing lerr lah X.X*
Night owl again X.X
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
met my SYH bros early today, 3am X.X gt a call frm ray saying he was right outside my hse!! O.O i was blurr blurr, wake up go balcony saw 5 cars right outside my hse!! 3 evos, 1 R35 and a 350Z.. stun tio, saw ray on the phone, called me to gt changed, time to roll.. i havent heard frm them in along long while.. ever since dexter tan passed on, i hardly contacted them.. washed up and hopped into kor's skyline R35 X.X the engine was so solid lorr.. went to my hse nearby kopitiam la kopi.. sat with kor and he was rather emo, not the kor i knew.. kor's cheerful, happy and always with denise.. its weird that i didnt see her today.. talked to him abt wad happened, told me that he broke up wif denise jie O.O i jig tao stun.. 6 yrs relationship.. liddat piak.. no wonder he so kek xim..
we left for pasir ris at ard 4am.. went to the road that we once used to race.. its been awhile since i hit the wheels.. ask bro ray to have a run with.. got laughed at by dickson bro, ray, jimmy, deon and crystal X.X say wad i so long bo drive lerr, mai buang kor de car T.T kor was like come we go take a spin first, just in case you forget where to turn, gave me that F3 look =.=" got to drive kor de R35 xD hear the engine sound alr high liao, still can floor the pedal =D went around the road to and fro and met up with ray bro.. crystal had her evo parked behind us O.O asked her y she did that then i saw deon parking her car beside crystal O.O?? jimmy went to park his 350z by the side.. great.. R35, evo 10 full tuned side by side X.X plus 2 semi tuned evos behind us.. this is gonna be tough to win.. jimmy still gt the race in his mind.. wanted all of us to take care and split if we see cops.. kor then sat on my left and said, im riding with u, i'll guide u through my cars performance on the way. X.X
we took off for a casual spin rather then a race.. took a round back to meet up with jimmy bro.. jimmy bored liao, smoking alr =.= i went out w/o my wallet and ciggs.. kor bought my fav, vice reds =D jim bro was asking why so long then crystal jie say i drive slow =X wa lao!! mai liddat lehh!! i like 2 yrs nvr touch the wheels lerr lehh x.x i rmb hw to drive considered ok lerr lorr T.T but still gave me a big hug when i was moody =X xie xie jie <33 then they all asked how i was doing in sch and stuff.. told them ok lorr then they ask abt my gf.. tols them i just broke up.. and as usual the whole story.. then deon jie came over and gave me a hug then say, shes nt worth it, dun think too much lerr k? i was like.. orh.. i wont.. then kor was u 1 week nia, i 6 yrs lehh!! then everyone laughed.. then i told kor, denise like u de, mai over small thing break lah, not worth it.. then he smiled and told me, i cant stand her lerr lah, keep tying me up dun let me go out.. everyone kept quiet..
went to disturb deon and crystal jie, they were like, its been awhile since we saw u lerr lorr.. your gim moh bo liao ar =.= i was like so long liao.. 2 yrs ler lehh.. squeezed into the back seat wif deon and crystal jie.. its been so long since i saw them lerr.. felt pretty tired.. kept yawning.. deon jie was like wan slp mah, then she pat her lap.. went bom and lie down lerr.. so tired.. crystal jie was like, its been awhile since i saw u like this.. our little brother nvr grows up huh, they both laughed X.X held onto crystal jie de hand, and used it like a bolster =D then deon jie say, u really dont change do u? gave me the F3 face =.=" i was like, of course not!! =p i actually dosed off as it was alr 5++ and gt woken up my kor as they thought i gt sch today.. and i rmb that all my stuff were at home.. deon jie still holding onto me told me to get up lerr.. gave crystal and deon jie a hug and they went off home first..
took a smoke with jim ray and kor..jim and ray had to go work soon ler, work starts at 7am so they also had to go.. left me and kor emo at pasir ris.. then kor said, we go ur hse take ur laptop and stuff then i send u to sch bahh.. i was like, kor u nt tired mehh? he was like, i ok de lah, i go home then slp =] i was like, orh, ok lorr.. reach home nearly 745 lerr.. told kor class start at 830.. told me not to worry, wont late de.. then i was like, sure late de lorr.. then kor said, have faith in me =] and we drove off.. went on the highway, kor was speeding, 160, 170.. was like kor mai tio catch ar.. he say dun worry, nt my license plate =] reached sch at 815 X.X see my phone time i also chua tio.. said bye to bro and to keep in contact =]
class as usual.. PHP today.. boring class.. met up with lee ming today.. havent been to class for the past few days since holi so i didnt kno wad really happened to my classmates ever sinde holis.. lee ming told me that he broke up wif his gf also.. 1yr 1 month.. haiz.. y ard me all my brothers, friends keep break up.. including myself.. flashbacks of her in my mind again.. i really cannot take it lerr.. emo whole day in class.. sit dwn do worksheet and emo again.. after class went to meet san bro for dinner then went to clementi to pa lan wif yong sim bro and gang.. then went home ler.. home at 10.. so boring day..
i <33 crystal and deon jie!! best sistas for life, will nvr forget wad u all said to me before i K.O de =] jim bro, ray bro and kor, thx for pei me slack as i guess dao dexter sim will tell u all de.. really enjoyed it although i K.O on deon jie de lap for most of the time X.X i kno deon jie sure leg cramp de like the old days.. lucky crystal jie always make her walk walk before driving back home =] jie, kor, bros, thx for the short trip to pasir ris.. i really enjoyed it.. thats where i grew up, where my sad and happy memories are put tgt.. ray bro faster go tell her lah, i kno u like her =X
deon jie called me out again, was alr 11 but just go out nia since jie wan me go meet her at bugis x.x saw crystal jie also. crystal jie say today wan ton at deon jie de hse de but last min need go out wif ray bro =X call me come dai ti her X.X wa lao, i become puppet lah T.T deon jie was like kia lah, we go home slack first. used deon jie de lappy to blog and play maple =X weird she still plays C world =.= as usual she keeps irritating me x.x still waiting for crystal jie, kor and ray bro to reach.. i guess ray and crystal very happy tgt wor =X well, i gtg ler, jie wan me pei her go smoke liao.. later then disturb deon jie =X
<33 deon jie, crystal jie, dickson kor, ray bro and jimmy bro!! thanks alot guys, really appreciate it =]
Note to self:~
i lost you,
BUT,
i found back my SYH bros and sistas =]
extra <33 to deon jie <33
crystal jie mai jealous =X
leaving my past behind,
~Chris aka SlaDerZz~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
Monday, January 12, 2009
Rmbed wad ming said to me, if it works out, it’s a bonus. But I guess I dun wanna hang on to this anymore. Dun see the point for being tgt and yet not enjoying it. I guess I should be happy that we were once tgt and nt to think so much frm now on. Hao ma bu chi hui tou chao. Friends always, I will always help u when ur down, stressed up or unhappy.. it ends here.. it ended 10/1/09, we shall be best friends from today.. final words from me to you:~ you made 2008 worth while and I wlll cherish every moment we spent tgt =]
Note to self:~
Move on..
Forget her..
Forgetting is tough..
~Chris~
-CHRIS aka xDS-
no mood at all.. woke up at 745am.. didnt want to go to sch.. so i ponned.. so wad if theres a test? i alr passed my module.. dun wanna take it.. went to meet shan bro at ard 830.. chit chat, smoked and waited for evelyn to come down.. she was in sch U? O.o then i rmb that she need take results today.. seeing them 2 tgt just makes me wanna emo.. but i didnt.. then went to summerset to send evelyn to work.. then me and bro went bugis for *brunch* as it was alr 1130 =.="
went to lan shop to play dota.. taught amatuer bro how to dota =.=" very funny stuff.. sniper bo snipe me one x.x PA ownage:~ threads, fury, butter, hearts, buriza.. its just a game.. bro was only learning.. didnt want to kill bro too many times.. later she wack me =X went back to summerset at 230 to fetch evelyn frm work and send her to KC to collect her result slip.. me and bro didnt go in with her.. went to nearby kopitiam to la kopi and slack.. talked about the same old issue, her.. bro told me that she doesnt even know wad she lost.. and said im a good guy, not worth for me to hold on to that only tree in this forest.. i felt really comforted.. to actually hear that from my friend, my brother.. i swear.. nothing can break this friendship, brothers for life..
bro got a call frm eve's friend saying that she was crying!! O.O i got a bad feeling.. bro said wad he taught really is happening.. eve did badly.. 4 E8s.. haiz.. she was crying really badly when me and bro reached.. i just went away.. didnt want to disturb them.. winnie mei called me.. and i just rmb i was in KC, mei's sch.. too bad, shes nt in sch today, some trip to china town =.=" went back to see how was bro and eve.. eve simmered down and we left the hall.. left bro and eve as they didnt want to go off yet.. so i took a bus and met yvonne..
winnie mei called me when i got on the bus.. talked to me abt wad happened abt me and my gf.. told her the whole story and she told me not to worry so much.. dun think abt it lerr.. just let her go.. i know.. let it go.. easy said but never done.. really enjoyed talking to u mei.. u always try to cheer me up when im down.. and u always call at the right time.. <3 u mei.. i wont let u down de..
long time no see ler sista.. u havent changed a bit.. still as happy and cheerful as always.. missed u so much.. bo contact me for so long liao.. ji emo yi xia.. x.x thought u forgt abt this brother lerr =[ walked around cwp then made our way to parkway.. took 966, no seat, stand for 1 hr++ na buay cb _l_!! told vonne abt wad happened btw us.. she told me that she was having pms? =.= i really dunno lah sis.. i always give in to her.. but this is wad i get in return.. used, played and tossed aside.. i kno its not worth it.. but i cant let it go that easily.. i finally got wad i wanted.. and it all flied away in less then a month.. i cant bear it to go away just like that.. sis, i kno u care for me, like i cared abt u in sec sch days.. but this time is diff.. <33 to sis.. will nvr forget u!! =]
To all my bros and sistas that cared for me these few days.. esp shan bro.. u were always by my side even though u have your own problems too.. these few days.. i've thought it through.. its not worth it.. i've done so much for u yet this is wad i get in return.. i will nvr forgt wad i did for u, wad i told u and how i won u even though it lasted for only a week cause ever since i met u, i kno now, how much and how far i can go to love someone.. u will always be my friend, although we might not be tgt, i cherish that every moment that we spent tgt.. all the best my friend.. i will move on.. DEX bro, bu yao fan wo ler lah.. X.X in army still can call me ask me mai think so much.. later ur sergeant kp u then u kno ar.. Kor, pls dun call me to smoke lesser.. u kno me de.. i emo i smoke reds.. dun pass me menthol when i meet u again tonight..
yes.. im back to smoking.. 1 pack or more per day.. im sick, coughing, flu, but i dun care.. bros ard tell me to stop as im alr sick.. but i dun care.. i really feel like puffing every time her face flashes into my mind.. i guess i like to use it as a smokescreen..
Note to self:~
its over.. its the past.. move on chris.. don linger in the past..
ytd is history, tmr is a mystery, cherish wad u have now, your bros, your sistas..
i <3 my bros and sistas.. will nvr forgt anyone of u.. <33
your brother always,
Christopher Chan You Qiang