-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
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-CHRIS aka xDS-
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-CHRIS aka xDS-
Damn, its been ages since i was here =/ i guess i gotta do some updates.. x.x
well, nth much happened these few days, usualy staying home, maple, dota, etc. went out to slack wif denv and yw recently.. should be wondering abt my bday? lol.. was in maple till noon then yw jio me go play bball then went home at 6+ bath changed slacked awhile in maple then went to bugis to meet vivian and yw for dinner. pasta mania, wad a meal. creamy chicken? =/ then headed to elias mall to ton wif james, kenny and leon. sad to say, i didnt blow candles off any cakes this yr.. its a lonely bday..
pretty busy with organising for HT these few days, finding squad members, etc. but yeah, it was worth it, HT downed todat, 2Hr 25Mins. and i EGGED =D for a cost of 60m for the whole squad cause of a weird rule. but who cares, still cheaper then 300m vip. =.=" slacked around GL till 9++ and took a bus home.. homed at 10+ maple and slaked till now.. thats all for today.. time for bed soon, really tired =/
Note to self:~
Stop Spending $!!
yeah, its my bday.. so wad..? i guess im gonna spend it alone.. perhaps in maple too.. i really dunno.. no msgs, no calls, no nothing.. i feel, so damn alone these days.. no1 every calls me out cept yw and denv to go out for dinner and slack etc. but others, they dont even give a damn.. bros, sis, do i mean anything to u guys..? or am i just another friend..? x/3
Havent blog ytd, so heres wad i did =/
17/2
usual training at home but i was up late =/ trained till 2 then slack around till 6+ and headed to cine to find vivian, had to pass back her keys that denv passed me the night before.. ya, she cried, i didnt kno wad to do just gave her a few pats on her back and saying relax, dun take it too hard.. =/ yes, its tough to let a r/s just go away like this.. hurting, saddening, wad more could you experience? x/3
after vivian went back to kbox, i took a lift down to wait for lu, was planning to call her when i gt out of the building, weird, i saw her walking towards cine alr. hmm.. lets say, i planned my steps nicely today? everything just seems to fit in, ah well, wad difference would it make? =/ walked ard cine then walked to plaza sing, strolled awhile and headed to bunk. saw denv, gab, bryan and 2 other unknowns =/ slacked till 7 then decided to start playing, went to solo papu, died at b2 20% =[ nvm, i shall have my revenge soon =/ waited till peng's ht dwn then went off at 10++, homed at 11.. maple and off to bed..
18/2
nth much today, tio tua my her as usual, last min actions, things i really make me hate a person cause of the lack of responsibility. if you cmi, tell the person the day before, dun make him wait till its too last min to find any back ups. it really is like throwing the whole chunk of work at that person and say, you do, i gtg. forgt it, im just gona let this go by, dun wanna preach on it. end up waste 1hr+ before ah yee got to leafre to help me =/ i really pity ah yee, always having to be my spammer at the shortest limit of time.. really thanks, auntie ah yee =X after training at 2pm, i was 97%.. went to msia boss, pretty nice drops.. then went to papu for revenge =D and yeah, i did it, i finally soloed a stupid papu =/ but dropped crap, 2 eqs =/ then ended my day in maple wif ah ma spree, around 5 bahh =/ then finished up my awakening quest and slacked around.. 165 5%.. 35% by 2pm tmr? thats if she doesnt chut stunt again i HOPE =/
haha, i guess, theres nothing much for me to brood about these days, i just live my life as it is, day by day passes, tic toc goes the clock.. for wadever i can think of, i have alr done it.. if u dun treat me as who i am then so be it.. i cant force you nor say that only i can break up with you, you can do likewise. =/ well, Bday in 2 days.. no plans wadsoever.. im tired, sick and tired of planning.. y wont someone plan for my bday this year? wouldnt that be nice? =] ah well, i thik too much, when do i ever have true friends that would do that for me? haha~ i think too much =/
Note to self:~
i guess,
its 19th Bday,
at home,
in maple..
x/3
haiz.. been spending the past few days in maple.. pure training, bossing, gpq.. etc. yes, im going to make it to 17x in this month.. i wanna lvl, i've been hard on my spammers, i push them to their limits.. im sorry, im just to exp siao le.. i really cant help but to gan ppl when they say they gtg for stuffs but i guess ppl have their things to do, i cant always force them right? but when they keep doing this, i just cant stad it anymore.. 164, 74.38%.. haiz.. i dont think i'll lvl today.. bg failed cause msia players dc, soloed bg B for 2hr and 5 mins, 16sets of stars dry, failed to down.. haiz.. im such a worthless nl.. i should just quit..
yeah, its been 5 days ever since the incident.. i cried every time i hear that song, i just cant help it but crash onto my bed asking myself, wad have i done..? i got nothing to say, things that i've done, effort i put in, its all gone.. just like that.. the moment u said that word, i guess u just pushed me off a 20 storey building.. yes, im moving on, although i still see your face everytime i close my eyes, i wanna move outta this.. i dun like living in the past, for that is history and only sweet memories are meant to be rmbed.. and, you should have received your Vday gift frm kor le bah, i asked him to send them to u for that would be the last thing that i've put my effort into.. for how much i love you, im willing to let you go fr all i want you to be is to be happy and not look back at the past.. forget me, for i am just another person on planet Earth named Christopher.. x/3
With a broken heart,
this is where i shall end my thoughts..
Notes to self:~
The end,
is a start,
of a new beginning..
But i dun wan it to end..
13/2
well, its been pretty rough on me these days, i've been glueing myself to the comp, mapling, training full swing.. lets say, i lvled frm 162 60% to 164 40% in 2 days bahh.. tired, shag but i just dunno y im doing this.. to forget you i spose? to gt my mind more focused on lvling rather then thinking of the matter.. and i'd like to apologise to lu for talking in such a bad tone in which i think i made u angry but u still spammed for me.. seriously thanks. =] skele whole day, trained wif lu from 10 til 1++ then trained wif my best buddy, ah yee from 1++ till 7++ then wif lu from 7++ till 9++ then relax till 11++ then cont till 3.. sad day, whole day at skele, not even 1 eq, only gt 1 gfa 10% ~.~
14/2
usual, up at 11, went online waited for ah yee to be ready, continue at skele till 4 then go slack le.. went to papu wif Dit, bibi and ah yee, dropped nth ~.~ then went to krexel, dropped nth again, just 1 neschere 100wa then flew back to nath to get ready for zak at 9..started at 915, dwned in 42mins.. then went back to perion for gpq.. gpq like 2 round then off ler.. damn tired.. feel like sleeping early.. i guess this is valentines for me, just another day at home, in maple.. x/3
Note to self:~
I cant bear to lose something i treasure..
I cant bear to say the word, and yet you did..
I hope you'll find someone better then me..
so this is the end.. you wanted me to find you last night.. cabbed to bedok to meet you.. saw that gloomy face of yours then started talking.. i didnt know why you lost your cool.. cause i have always been listening to you and i wasnt angry at all.. but since you made this decision then i have nothing to say.. parted 12/02/09.. x/3
went to meet denv at paya lebar mrt at ard 2 bahh.. headed to bunk to see see, saw a 144dk maxhp ~.~ rich ass F3 then went to cathay to gt his Vday stuff then went to PS to get more stuffs.. Vday.. haiz.. dunno wads gonna happen.. then met yw, gab and bryan.. play arcade, talk cock at bunk, puff time then me, yw and denv need go grandlink thr find peng for dinner.. so we went off to grandlink but end up peng eat le, left us 3 go eat jian dao jian ~.~ not bad food, can go try =p
went off after that as i was running late, having a guild malaysia boss run tonight.. rushed to the bus stop to take the bus home and took a quick bath and online le.. lucky nt that late, 10min nia =X dwned in ard 45mins bahh, 1 gfa, 1 gfd and another scroll i forgot =X then went to discuss training plans with her, the ppc stuff.. then logoff le.. dam tired.. havent slp since tues morn x.x i need my slp!! T.T
i've called and msged you yet you dun even wanna bother abt them.. i dunno how im going to contact u le.. yes, i've deleted the bm for its not sumthing i wanna play. my roots are in Delp for thats where all my frens are. i play Cass cause kor was busy as he had night shift so i just play for fun, help him zak.. pls dun drag maple into our r/s..i really dun like maple to be our barrier.. i'll be awaiting ur reply..
Notes to self:~
Life is not a bed of roses,
there are thorns everywhere.
Keep your eyes open
and there wont be unwanted pain.
10/2/09
slept till late.. up in the noon.. went onto maple to slack.. slacked in fm wif james and carol.. james just bought a 4wa 10dex de cape =p i kapo and wear =X dmg increase a bit nia ~.~ but btr then nth lah, went to farm.. then queenie called, jio me go out slack wif her friend Alicia.. end up Alicia last min cmi then i met queen at cine at 715 liddat.. ate kfc, slack awhile then decided to walk to bunk.. reach bunk, saw ht then saw familiar faces, Gab(Wudirockz), Jh(Kandiva), JJ(AizaiRang3r), YW(lutorium) and Wj(IaMbAckZ).. jj's ht run bahh.. slacked around till 9++ then went off le..
kapo james de 90m buy 2 set ilbi =X then bought 1 set myself andkapo chant chant de 5 set xD well, finally throwing ilbi liao ~.~ i guess its really time to rebuild le.. i'll write up in the next post bahh.. slacked in maple, went to 2 zak runs.. 1 to help kang helm, nb 1Hr++ bo bian, fren so i dong throughout and dwn even w/o se.. end up only left me and kang duo 20% B3.. dwn le stare at drops, si mi lan poon bo ~.~ only 1 infi 30.. zzzz.. went for 2nd run, b3 40%, i think i sleepy then jump press wrong button, fj into body ~.~" gt ress, i nt ready jiu ress, piu again.. then gt 2nd bs to ress but dc le ~.~ wasted 2% in zak.. sian le..
walk here walk thr.. 4am++ le.. sit down talk cock with james and vivian.. talk crap sia ~.~ dunno wad xDumpSin = Rubbish Chute, xNuBBuNx = xPoKBuNx ~.~ bth, then talk about jap stuff, i jig tao catch no ball ~.~" then talked in han yu pin yin, they say my pinyin weird, lol ~.~ then back to normal english le =p crap till 6++ then i wan go slp de but suo dao parents de this and that, about how they treat me and stuff like that jiu talk till 7++ le.. then i pigu yang, went to scan ah ma, tmd first cc jiu tio le ~.~ end up ah ma till just now 925 liddat, server check, all dc le..
went out for a puff then went to office.. sit down slack.. nth to do, maple cannot in, blog lo.. so sian.. maybe go out wif denv in the noon bah.. then gt msia boss run in the evening.. tired.. x.x
since monday morn, there have been no contact at all.. dunno wads going through your mind now.. i really dunno wad to do now.. lay around, wait for an answer? we'll see how bahh.. well, gt some work to clear.. update when im home at night bahh..
Note to self:~
I guess,
This is when i say,
I cant bear to lose you,
But,
You wanna make me do it..
didnt go to dad's office in the morn, went to Dearie's block to find the evo, guess i was early, the car still there.. was around 730 when i reached, saw Dearie came out of the lift at 745.. she was, what are you doing here..? i just said, to find you..? then she said, now is not the time, i'll get back to you later. great, i woke up just to find you early in the morn when i slept at like 4 and i was up at 7 then this is wad you tell me.. nvm.. she just drove off and i just went to emo, smoked 9 sticks.. then went off to grab some breakfast and went to office..
saw the piles of work on my table, 3 reports, 2 tenders and some receipts i need to check for errors in case the figures didnt taly.. haiz.. by the time i finished, alr 130 le.. went for lunch and back to maple at 2++ farmed like 4 hrs.. gt abt 6-7m bahh.. went off for dinner wif family and then went home for krexel at 7pm.. dwned in 1hr20min, stupid gab left after first eye dwn then no se, then 1 dk dc left 2 nl 1 dk at eye 2 after 50% w/o se.. dropped nothing except for pots and $$..
went to bath and went back to farm.. then slacked in fm talk cock wif guildmates.. i must say, DOD is a much livelier guild compared to BF, at least we gt to org boss runs, GPQ, slack and train tgt.. ya, i guess im home, home sweet home after leaving DOD when i was 13x now back to the first guild i joined in Delp.. <33 to DOD, and im in the top 10, 9th position now, gonna try rush to 17x asap =]
so here i am blogging after finished chatting wif my guildmates.. yes, you havent contacted me even though i msged u like 3 times today, once like mins before this post.. i've thrown away everything, my pride, my dignity and my face to step out to find you.. i guess you didnt wanna see me after all, dont you..? i dunno wads happening these days.. im lost, someone guide me through..
Its been 18hrs since we had our last meetup/call/msg..
Notes to self:~
Be prepared for the worst..
Its time to do wadever you can,
to bring her back, even when it hurts.
-L.O.S.T-
well, don wanna blog in detail le.. pretty boring day today.. not much excitement ~.~
whole day spent in maple.. whole day of farming at CCS2.. a few mils bah.. then got a lil pek chek looking at my char with no cash.. went to CS and play dress up, not bad actually, still looks fine.. but it comes with a cost, 54k total.. zzzz.. went out for dinner and bought 60k cash.. left with 40 bucks.. haiz.. dressed up my char pretty nicely.. now the next thing to do, revive pet, 1 monthly 2x and 1 monthly twin.. need to cough out another 35k cash.. haiz.. du lanz..
its been 72hrs since your last msg/call.. wad do u mean by this.. wad does this sudden silence mean? i dun like waiting for no continuations or endings.. if you wanna tell me then tell me now.. i dun like rolling around in circles.. just tell me straight to the point.. haiz..
Note so self:~
I guess this year is a real bad year for me.
Studies:~ Fail
Gaming:~ Fail
Job:~ Fail
r/s:~ Fail
-Failure-
up at 1++, went to office to clear some admin stuff.. login maple slack, cho bo, scan tio 1 ahma and solo abt 2 cider ben came and ask slot for his fren to leech, then let her leech lo.. end up chocolate charm expire, tio gun, piu, 5% fly.. nb du lan.. left 47% after ahma dwn..
gave james a call and he say going katong eat laksa with ming, then i go find him at his hse there.. took a long bus ride frm tampinese to katong and had our dinner at like 7++ then went to play pool.. haiz.. didnt kno they playing loser punch.. simi sai, lost 3 rounds, 15 dollar fly. nb. sua, take it i pay for pool tonight. left at 1020, walked to PP and took 15 home.. then went maple to guild pq with my current guild, DawnOfDream. was my first guild i joined when i was 4x in delp.. lots of old friends there.. then went to dota wif james and friends.. nb, 2 games also 2nd to james!! first game lose by 10k, 2nd game by quite alot..
sian lah, do wad also fail today, fked up day.. went to maple to ask wj whether he wan train back hero or not, he say dowan. sua, this kind of friend, say steady ciong, now say i mia cause of my r/s problem then now he no mood train. wad kind of shit is this? still say he free then he play. fk man, wad kind of attitude is this? might as well withdraw and leave it to rot. tio bo? nb. forget it, im deleting the hero in 3 days. take back wads yours and its gone.
2nd day of no contact.. i dunno wad you're thinking.. cause of the words i said regarding HT? dont treat me as if im a toy.. i kno u spent time on the bm.. but u expect me to chiong it now? i cant take it ler lah.. u wan me pei u go where i will go de but now u wan me chiong the bm abit not me leh.. then u tell me u vip neck + egg the bm this wed.. i dunno wad u thinking lerr.. haiz.. u decide bahh.. i got no say in this.. just tell me yes or no bahh.. i wan give up lerr..
Notes..
Im willing to sacrifice my sleep to chiong for you.
Im willing to sacrifice my plans for you.
Can you not treat me this way?
-Heart Broken-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
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Just who the fcuk do u think u are? Fancy deleting my post in the guild BBS? U think its your routine job of clearing up the BBS? u think its fun to have your post deleted even when its not suppose to be deleted and for members to use it as a reference? then i can tell u these 2 words:~ FCUK YOU. if u think its funny then u can find me bahh. u kno whr i stay, i kno whr u stay. u kno who u are, and i gues if you're reading this then find your phone and dial my numbers. its obvious isnt it? u think abt it bah jie. thats all i have to say.
slacked around in maple as usual, went for sg boss then continue to slack.. guild so dead, no ppl to chat with.. went off to cass to reopen shop, nothing much sold, 2 gen 20 and a craven 45wa sold.. haiz.. so little $$.. went back to delp and was jioing ppl to dota then Lwin say he wan but he at ahma siol.. then go disturb Lwin and he call the person pt me, free xp =D Lwin gt new claw siol, casters, prolly 6x wa got 10k on ahma siol.. haiz.. see le emo.. then ahma dwn go dota le.. lost the game.. bought wrong thing.. haiz.. buy 1 broadsword liao still buy another for nothing.. end up make crystalyst.. zzzz..
slacked in maple till 5++ 6 then went to ubi to meet shan bro for dinner.. slacked, talk cock with bro and eve.. then Denverina called me siol ~.~ jio me go tm slack with him.. saw Riyae and i just rmb that its their 1 month anni.. wtf sia denv still jio me go on their anni.. Zzzz.. bo bian, reach le, just slack lo.. went to CS play mario kart ~.~ then slack awhile till 9++ jiu go home le.. Riyae looks emo regarding some HT things.. haiz.. Maple ruins our lives.. fhked up.. then reach Eunos at 950 and slack outside mrt station with denv talk about Riyae de problem.. talk till 1030 jiu go home le..
well here i am blogging after my bath =p zak cancelled today, i can sleep EARLY!! YAY!! *Celebrates =X* off to maple, a useless addiction..
Notes to self:~
Bit by bit..
Step by step..
i can see the picture now..
06/02 ~ Midnight
Dearie came by my hse last night, then i went bg, jump shot half way finger tired, pass to her =X after ah gong down i gain 4% ~.~ so little F3~ went out to msn to bug denver ask him wan come out slack not then he say awhile lo.. but Dearie need go to lan shop cause today de helmer haven do jump quest + is friend so she help her do lo.. dropped me near denv's place and i walked over, slacked and talk cock till 215 liddat then i walked back to Eunos de kopitiam ta pao rojak for kor and gang =D cabbed to Grandlink, had rojak, puffed, slacked and started zak at 4.. dwned as usual, Craven 48wa, Gen 20, TT 20, Stance 30 and some pots.. Grats Crystal jie de noob lvl 50 *BM* helmed =X played 1 game of dota after zak and Dearie sent me home.. homed at 6am, quick shower and crashed~
06/02 ~ Noon
got woken up by 2 calls while i was sleeping X.X Dearie called me ask me whether kor de hero still gt eye of fire or nt, i blurr blurr say dunno lehh, later i go check.. then she say go slp lah, you sound like a zombie. aiyo, i like 2-3 days nvr have a nice sleep lerr lehh =[ then jeremy msg me asking about the Pink Gaia cape.. then he call me after i replied.. talk for abt 12min liddat then i continue roll on bed =X roll here roll there then cannot slp le, so go wash up lo.. so here i am blogging.. maybe i'd go check on Cass items.. a lot of things haven sell..
will update on the rest of the day later~
05/02/09
just a little thing to add on wad i did ytd. while having dinner with james and jeremy, me and jeremy had some cherry drink float with a cocktail cherry in the drink. james said that if u can tie the stalk of the cherry with everything you have in your mouth, teeth, lips etc. then you're a good kisser O.o james said he took almost 20mins to do it so me and jeremy tried it after dinner, playing around with the stalk and i managed to tie the knot in 3 mins O.O james went WTF and i was like wad? i first time try siol ~.~" jeremy finished tieing in about 10mins. wad does this mean? i dun get it. ah well, just another game bah F3~
alright, heres wad i did today ~.~ awaken by a call from dad nagging at me calling me to go to office at 130.. rolled around my bed for awile more and went to wash up and went to office.. reached at 230 and i saw a pile of files and reports on my desk!! SMLJ.. im not there de worker leh, call me do free labour si mahh. F5! do this do that only managed to finish at 440.. blogged about wad i did on wed and went into maple to slack.. Lwin and AoA jio me for anego so i went for 2 of them and slacked in maple again.. talk cock with guild members then went off at 6++
continue to listen to music while the rest of the workers go home lerr as i need to attend a business dinner with dad X.X left office at 715 and reached the restaurant at East Coast, some Tung Lok restaurant.. i must say this but the food there is awesome =D had the usual Yu Sheng followed by fresh Australian Lobsters raw on the plate. then had Fuo Tiao Qiang, this one's awesome, the soup is like dam xiang lo =X then comes Lobster soup, made from the lobster head which was from the cold plate earlier on, thick concentrated yet pretty smooth soup =] then comes chicken, usual roast chicken with a bit of almonds on top. then comes steamed grouper, 2 of them O.o 1 red 1 black, fresh fish in Qing Zhen style =D last but not least, some Luo Mi Fan, this one not as good, a bit plain ~.~ then comes dessert, some crispy pancake with red bean and fruits. End of Dinner, full like ~.~ can feel that my stomach is like bursting F7.
homed at 1020.. slacking in front of comp as usual.. maybe go in maple slack yi xia then go slp lerr bahh.. still got a few reports coming in tmr, better finish up then can relax =D
Note to self:~
To forget is tough,
To remember is easy,
To let go is the toughest.
Teach me how to do all of the above..
04/02/09
up pretty late, 2++pm.. went online to check zak pt for james de 2 runs.. got a call from james saying that i am to take over orging cause he stuck at comfort driving centre.. zzzz.. told guild about the taking over and told them to be at nath by 4 but kai need to kpkb ask so many stupid questions like, wad cc, time start. i take over org nia expectme to know all these zhi xi details?? ~.~ waste my time answering u as i was flying to orbis.. called james got all the details and then called carol to pas the message to kai.. then rushed all the way frm eunos to bunk..
reached bunk at 420pm and started zak at 430.. downed, drop 1 gen 20 nia, stupid drops ~.~ went for a puff as 2nd run delay 1hr liddat cause Jx chut stunt, last min bo hb, end up need mega ask for hb ~.~ 2nd run dwned at 655, 1 43wa craven _l_ and some pots ~.~ Grats:~ MaskedDemon, Saphira and Carol's pirate helmed =]
went for a puff and went to hong kong cafe for lunch with james and jeremy. black pepper chicken chop O.o?? ok lo, not bad la.. went back to bunk actually wan dota with the ppl thr but they like very dao dowan play wif us T.T end up took train to pasir ris, Elias mall there pa dota till 1245am X.X IM LATE!! F5!!
took cab home and the moment i reach home at 1255, dearie msg me saying she touch down liao!! siao liao lah, i cfm late lerr T.T paid cab driver and ran into hse, into my room and grabbed the keys. Ran to the end of the road where i parked the car and sped off to changi airport. up ECP and sped all the way, i hit 170 on the evo, whole car a bit shaky, a bit scared siol X.X reached airport at 0110 and went to gate 18 to wait for that piggy to come out =X waited for like 10min then i saw her and her parents walked out.. big big hug to Dearie, its been like a week lerr T.T her parents seemed pretty shocked O.O i guess sotong didnt tell them i was coming to pick them up bahh.. left airport at 0130 and drove slowly to bedok =X don dare speed, 2 lao lang at the back =X reached below her block at almost 2 lerr.. brought the luggage up to her doorstep and went downstairs with Dearie.. talked crap and i get to try some Korean ciggs O.O weird taste ~.~" still Next Chill better =X
Dearie actually bought my DKNY Green apple for me =D my mum bought Red apple which is for ladies F5!! nvm, exchange yi xia, give Dearie red and i take green =D slacked around till 0230 and she seemed tired lerr.. so i sent her up to her place and took a cab home.. homed at 0250, bathed and crashed.. Missed u Dearie~
Notes to self:~
Does time really heal all wounds?
I would be lieing,
if i said i didnt miss you..
went to fetch mum(HuangTaiHou) and sis from the airport last night with dad, ah ma and uncle andy. flight delayed till 1030pm then land X.X we were there from 1015pm till 1110pm then they come out X.X talked abit then we went off lerr. homed at 1140pm.. went onto maple to slack and crashed at 2++
up at 1pm today, nth much to do, went onto maple and did sg boss quest then wait till 345 then can go in T.T down lerr go cook maggie and eat then went for a quick puff, wa lao, last stick lerr T.T i really need to cut down on puffing x.x went off at 6pm and went to look for my dad's car at the nearby kopitiam.. went in and we went to Joo Chiat for dinner.. the Teochew restaurant again.. homed at 730pm..
nothing to do again.. maybe go maple then go koon? haiz.. wonder wad has been happening these days.. not being myself, flare up every now and then even over small matters.. made her angry cause of some words i said.. even as a friend i shouldnt have said those words.. i just couldnt think y i'd be so cold to her these days.. cause of wad i have in mind about her? i really dunno these days, hw girls think, their behaviour, its just weird seriously catch no ball at times..
its gonna be a long day tmr.. got 2 runs of zak in the noon, 4-7pm time slot and Dearie's coming back tmr, midnight flight.. guess im gonna be her family's chauffeur tmr night.. tired, with a lost mind, not thinking straight X.X
Note to self:~
Should i give up..?
Im sick and tired of it..
up at 12pm, went online to check some stuff in cass and delp then went out for lunch and reached to office at 2pm.. read jie de blog then saw kai's post. really bth, just reply back nia. slacked in maple, dwned sg boss and went for early dinner as dad gt customer coming at 6, will drag till pretty late so ask me to go eat first. came back at 530 and went to jie de blog to see kai's reply. i tio fcuked till upside down? smlj sia, all along i try help u 2 not to emo over little matters and yet this is wad i get? to get my ass fcuked upside down for no fcuking reason? fcuk man, WTF have i done wrong?
No point.
Forget it.
Help = tio gan.
Dun help = kan bu xia qu.
Bro:~ seriously kai, i dunno WTF r u thinking abt. now u come and kpkb, fcuk me upside down? if this is wad u wan then so be it. from now on, watever shit happens between u 2 is none of my business. being a friend i try to help yet this is wad i get. _l_ this man. bo dai bo ji tio kp and _l_-ed upside down.
Note to self:~
Time to change,
Not gonna help anyone anymore.
was homed at 320am, washed up and crashed at 430.. up at 830 and went for breakfast with dad.. reached punggol de fish pond at 9am.. started fishing.. 1 hour of nothing till they released fish at 10.. caught 2 red snapper and 1 grouper.. continued fishing till 12pm and went off.. homed at 1230 and went to wash up and crashed again X.X
up at 4pm and went out for a quick bite with kor at my hse de kopitiam.. went to lan shop to pa dota and slack.. weird, didnt wanna login to Delp.. guess i dun wanna see some ppl bahh.. fooled around with papu, almost piu by bomb =X Dearie called me at 530 X.X long distance call, didnt wanna chat long, phone bill sure chor.. talked for about 20min then i off lerr.. whole day stuck at lan shop with kor.. went for dinner at some kopitiam near sembawang.. then kor sent me home at 930..
bathed and went into Delp.. lots of ppl lvled, thought the guild was dead but i guess still gt ppl training bahh.. really wanna give up mapling ler, dun see the point really.. slack slack, chit chat can lo.. but if wan serious chiong then a bit sian lerr.. btw, grats Denverina passed 4 30% on his sparta ~.~ jyjy chiong ur hero bahh..
surfing the web aimlessly.. dunno wad to do, just go to sleep? guess not.. Huang Tai Hou coming back tmr ~.~ 10.10 touchdown.. need go fetch her with dad.. Zzzz.. off to dota.. damn bored X.X
Note to self:~
Wonder wad would become of me after all this..
Its just so tough to carry on..
I wanna crash ler..
Haiz..
X.X