-CHRIS aka xDS-
after the conversation last nite, i didnt sleep a wink.. just thought of what im gonna do, just really dunno wad i should do to keep her from going over.. i just cant think of any ways.. went to washup and bath at 5am then made my way to the mrt.. took a quick breakfast but the mrt was still closed.. waited till 5.45 and the gates opened.. took the first train to boon lay.. kept calling her hp for like 6 times.. no answer.. when i lost hope, a msg came in asking if im on my way.. just gave her a call and told her to wait at BL mrt.. then another msg came in.. dunno how to put it but it made me broke down.. didnt cry miraculously, just felt down..
met up with her, asked her wad was the msg about.. after she said, i just blew up.. slammed the mrt walls and the slam was so loud, many people turned over to look.. awkward.. she wanted to leave me alone but i told her to go to the other side to talk.. i just cooled myself off and started talking properly.. asked about this and that, why and how.. just didnt get the answer i wanted.. went to pasir ris to chill out.. the one place where i can really clear my mind.. finally spilled the beans about some stuffs.. i just couldnt keep it in me anymore..
had some lunch at whitesands, kfc. went back to batok to settle her resignation stuffs from her workplace.. little sotong brought everything except her passport photo.. =.= had early dinner at the nearby kopitiam.. after that she told she need go help him with spamming.. haiz.. i wanted to spend the evening slacking and yet its always a phone call and shes gone.. its just hard to let go.. but i dunno why she still wanna go slack with him.. im trying my very best and yet, this happens.. all i hope is that she keeps her word, leave at 10, be home by 11.. thats all i want from her..
i trust you, putting down my life on the line for u is always an option without batting my eyelids.. as long as u are true to me, i will never be unreasonable..
thats all for today, thx for reading =]
Chris <33 Lusandra~
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