-CHRIS aka xDS-
up pretty early n the morning.. still coughing and a bit feverish.. went to sch as normal.. had OS today.. easy stuff.. was excited to meet dear later on since its our first week tgt.. class ended at 1120.. msged dear to ask her where she is as i wanted to go according to wad i planned.. it might not be wad u might want but u didnt tell me anything the night before when i sent the msg asking if u wanted to change anything.. dear told me she doesnt want to meet so early.. wanted to slack at home.. so i jio some frens for lunch and started dota-ing, L4D, CS, till 3++
msged dear again if she wanted to head out alr or not.. kept bugging her to come out.. then i got on my way to batok via mrt.. when i just boarded the bus, dear called me saying she gtg for the tuition with the pri sch kid.. then she told me that wj and friends jio her go bugis for dinner.. actually wanted to spend the whole day with just the 2 of us.. but since she wanted to go.. i didnt want to say no.. bo bian.. alr on the bus.. so just headed to her place downstairs de kopitiam for a quick lunch.. asked her to msg me the address and stuff.. took the correct bus BUT in the wrong direction!! X.X went the other side to take the bus down again.. finally reached the bus stop at 5++.. walked around but couldnt find the place.. msged dear to tell her i would be at the bus stop.. called her at 612 wanted to ask if she was done or not.. didnt pick up so i went to 7-11 to grab a drink.. looked at my phone and it was alr 630.. so i gave dear another call.. still didnt pick up.. got a little worried since it was alr way past the tuition timing of 430 to 6.. finally dear called me at 645.. told me that the kid was rather luo suo..
took bus 67 to kallang.. told her today will ton since it was our first week as i wanted to spend the night with her and catch the sunrise.. she told me she dowan ton saying she gt sumthing on tmr morning.. gt rather upset.. slammed the metal pole and glass window.. then i started to ask her why and stuff like that.. she seemed rather adamant on not tonning tonight.. but i insisted her to pei me.. she got gloomy and didnt want to talk to me..
xferred over to mrt and headed to bugis.. she was having a rather moody look on her face.. then i called wj.. shouted on the phone.. i really didnt mean to shout so loud but wj couldnt hear properly as his background was very noisy.. dear thought i was angry and so shouted on the phone.. i wasnt angry.. not convinced.. she started to walk very fast towards the escalator.. then she asked me.. if she were not to pei me ton, would i be like this for the whole day? i said.. this is our first week tgt, i just want to make u happy and remember this day.. she just walked off.. haiz.. called wj again.. this time his background nt so noisy, can hear him clearly.. went to lv3 FreshBox to meet wj, denver, yw, sebas and meow*ps didnt catch ur name X.X* discussed on where to go for dinner and headed to pasta mania.. dear's mood picked up when we met wj and friends.. i guess its all the jokes we crapped about.. JJ joined us shortly after booking outta camp.. while having dinner, Ken called and asked if we wan to join him and james for a mid night movie.. said ok as we were catching omb bak or bedtime story.. james reserved the tickets but havent paid for them yet.. told dear about it.. she got unhappy again.. said she wanted to go home to rest and would catch a movie with me another time.. i just told her that the tickets booked liao just wan kno which time slot we wan go watch.. she said i xian zhan hou zhuo.. meaning i did things before asking her about it.. then i remembered that she wants to go home.. now gt 1 extra ticket.. so i tried persuading dear to go to no avail.. walked to parklane mall as wj and friends wanted to play L4D there.. walked around fnding a suitable lan shop.. all full.. and we went off to walk to the mrt station.. i guess they played pool after we left..
dear still didnt want to go.. i didnt know why i was so persistent today.. i guess i really want to rmb wad happened today.. but dear's mind was fixed on going home.. she got mad and didnt even wan me to hug her.. i got sad.. i know i was a little persistent on it but u didnt have to say those hurting words like u dun wan me to plan from today onwards.. i always plan ahead of wad i wanna do.. i dun like going out wif nothing in mind and walk around doing nothing.. she got really upset because of all this.. and stormed towards her bus stop.. held her back once or twice.. but she just wanted to go off.. i didnt know u were very tired and wanted to rest.. i guess its my fault to plan ahead in things.. msged her asking her to msg me when she reaches home..
if you ever bother reading this.. all i wanna say is that im sorry for doing this to you.. i was really unreasonable to want you to stay even though u didnt want to.. forgive me.. i didnt think for you and was being selfish only thinking of my ownself.. have fun with your friends tmr.. headed to E hub to meet ken, james, jess and jy.. didnt catch the movie as i was pretty emoish.. ken suggested bowling.. so we went to E hub and rammed some balls.. won the first round but lost the 2nd.. went for a walk to chill with james.. talked to him about wad happened.. and he told me to chill off and think before i act.. true.. i was a little too rash and harsh on my words.. now i know how stupid i can be when im angry.. saying stupid things..
went over to elias mall for dota after ken and jy finished bowling their set.. reached thr almost 3am.. dota-ed till almost 7 in the morn.. ken and gang sent me to the mrt station as they were taking cab and shun lu so send me to mrt.. reached home 745.. bath and wrote this..
thinking back.. i feel so stuid now.. forcing you to stay when you dont want to.. i should have just let you go home and at least i can see your smile instead of your gloomy face.. dont take wad i said to heart.. as i always tend to say bad things when im angry.. rest well.. i hope to see you happy again..
thats all for today, thx for reading..
Chris <33 Lusandra~
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