-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
-CHRIS aka xDS-
i wonder how have u been coping with life..
Its been a long long while since i've been here.. Lots of shit happened in the past few mths.. Enough to make me change 360 degrees.. Lost some friends & loved ones.. Gained some bros in NS.. But i guess it doesnt really matter now.. When ppl leave you, i always believed they left for a reason.. And now i truly understand why some left while some stayed on..
I know that i was a real idiot to do those stupid things.. Neither will i throw the responsibility to the other party.. I reaped wad i sowed so i cant complain.. Knowing that the scar i left on you wouldnt fade, i told myself to try to forget everything.. But i guess all of you would know that its simply impossible.. And yes, i regretted wad i did and honestly didnt want them to take place.. But i guess its just too late to do anything now.. I wouldnt deny that i do still miss you and when i go to places we always been, its just like walking down memory lane.. Yeah, it sucks..
P.S: If you ever see this, i only wish for you to stay happy and healthy.. Smile for me.. :)
As time goes on, we'll find out the truth to everything. < 3
what is love.. is it any different from any ordinary feeling? =/
Im tired.. just freaking tired of everything..
-Gone
i kno its been a uber long time since i ever updated here.. was on holidays for like 3 weeks.. as usual ht runs as per normal and lvling starts to get slower.. watching at frens turning 200 every now and then just gives me the itch to train.. and so here i am, proudly 12th NL of Delphinus.. i just cant describe the training i been through.. all that grinding is really tough.. its hard training.. yet im stupid enough to chiong another char.. thx to my NL's left over 3x, i started training my prz.. and its fking 120 now -.-" doing the lame genesis quest which made me fly to and fro ellinia and elnath for like the past 2 hrs..
well, enough of maple.. lets get to the real world now.. got the cold shoulder frm angie.. been a few weeks now.. truth to say, i really feel like giving up already.. although its just a maple r/s, i just feel like, wasted really.. i guess this happens when both are at 2 sides of the world.. well, i kno theres someone that i kno i like out there.. but things arent as simple as it seems.. thursday's the day that i'll find out i guess.. i dont hope for anything.. just dun wanna lose her, even as a friend..
a really down night..
-xDS-
its been awhile. pretty busy these days, stuck in sch wif projs and been handling hts here and there. 4 runs per week, lan shop sucking all my $ =/ well, hopefully i'll be able to survive bahh. but seriously, i should do sumthing abt my lappy. specs are there but its freaking vista, cant ht cant zak, missing out on alot le. and alot of stupid bugs =/ enough of that, should be able to think of a way to settle those stuff.
ah well, made a new claw last week, 62 base, don have the balls to scroll it. gotta admit it this time, i don wanna boom it again =/ as usual, 2 diff thinkings, wack 30 = zai but boom = GG-fied -.- throw 60 = avg but keep fail = GG-fied -.-" so freaking stressed on this, should i wack or nt x.x time to time, i start thinking, is being top wad i want, or is it even reachable when thrs ppl like rh around. i guess that i just wanna be able to deal that 33k on mid thats all. 29.5 was the max i saw wif echo cid mw20. wif mw30 is 31k =/ guess i really need a 8x claw x.x
just lvled ytd, 190 le, time to kick back and relax ;x and maybe start chionging someday. its been a crazy ride to 190, remembering the days of ks at anego, even tengu! ;x to the days of grinding at skele which was freaking boring to the max. -_- and then come the days of time temple and HT combo. xp was slow, but im still proud that i grind from 186-190 from bg, TT and HT. tough but as the saying goes, slow and steady wins the race! so here i am, 190 NL of Delphinus, although im not that zai in dmg, i solo train this char up ;x
after all these hardcore training at TT and HT as usual making me MIA from my frens, its really time to kick back and relax ;p time to spend more time with my baby ;x since she has been complaining to me that im a BUSY man ;x time to go on a holiday and spend time with her le. arbo she run away how ;X! baby's sick these few days, after the heavy downpour on thurs i think. she got slight flu on that night alr =/ and it aggravated to fever =/ she got better on sat and was able to make it for guild HT. but she felt weird last nite and went off to bed early. baby pls get well uh ;p hope to see u around more =/
well, i guess theres some shopping to be done in maple, gotta stock up on some cfa 30% since its rather alright price now. about under 60m le. can start to buy ;x then gotta stock up on other stuff like crystals and junk scrolls before i start wacking my claw ;x thats the plan for now, stock up and get ready for the next claw to come out ;x
-Chris <3 Angie-